Me (to the family): GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT?! Sister: What? Oh congrats! You did it! *comes up and hugs me* Me: Wait what? What did I do?! Sister: You finally broke up with your boyfriend, right? Me: Err.. Nope. I got a job interview at IKEA. Sister: Ohhh.. Right. Cool.
I JUST WROTE A WHOLE FUCKING RANT POST ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE OVERLY EXPOSED AND COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY LOVEY DOVEY COUPLES WHO JUST LOVE TO SHARE EVERY SINGLE LOVING MOMENTS ON FACEBOOK, AND TUMBLR FUCKED UP AND DELETED THE POST. POINT OF THE STORY IS, I FUCKING HATE COUPLES LIKE THAT. IF THEY ACTUALLY MEANT HALF OF THE SHIT THAT THEY PUBLICLY STATE ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER, IT SHOULDN’T BE ON FACEBOOK OR ANY SOCIAL NETWORK OR EVEN ON THE THE INTERNET. IT SHOULD BE SAID FACE TO FACE, IN WORDS, IN EACH OTHER’S PRESENCE AND BE MESMERISED BY THIS FUCKING MAGICAL MOMENT. IT’S CUTE FOR A LITTLE BIT YEAH, BUT NOBODY FINDS THIS SHIT ADORABLE ANYMORE. YOU’RE FUCKING ADULTS NOW. AND NO ONE ACTUALLY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT WHAT GOES ON BETWEEN A COUPLE. YOUR RELATIONSHIP WILL BE A LOT MORE SPECIAL WHEN IT’S NOT SPENT WITH 800 FACEBOOK FRIENDS. SO DO US ALL A FAVOUR AND KEEP THAT SHIT TO YOURSELVES YEAH?!
Oh and this is what had ticked me off so much: "Hey, you’re with me but I miss you :)"
I don’t want meaningless sex. I would get too emotionally attached to the person, I don’t know how people can do it. I will never ever forget my first time and i’m not saying that in a good way. I can’t think of anything more wrong than losing your virginity to a random. I hate the thought of it. It disgusts me. He disgusts me. It still kills me to think that I put myself in that situation. It was completely my fault and my actions were my responsibility to control, which I lacked over. To other people, I make it seem like i’m over the whole situation and I can just easily laugh over it, but to be honest i’m still far from that. It still sickens me as of now. It fucking hurts everytime it is brought up. The sound of his name, his scent, the touch of his skin, his face permanently plastered in my head. Everything about him makes me sick. He is the only person I truly hate.
So last night I got used by the fuck buddy more than ever before. Beforehand we had established exactly what he wanted. Exactly how he wanted to use his filthy whore. He told me to wear my short skirt with no panties and instructed me to only open the door, and not say a word. I was told that I was to not say hello or goodbye, I was just there to be used to suck his cock and if I did as I was told, when I see him (and maybe his friend) on Tuesday, I would be allowed to cum over & over. So I opened the door and he came in and thrust his hand up my skirt to feel how wet I was before making me lick his fingers clean. He then forced me onto my knees & took his huge cock out and told me to deep throat his cock like the slut I am. He grabbed my hair and kept talking dirty to me. After working my magic and having him fuck my mouth he came. All over my mouth, neck and tits. I licked it all up of course, like a good little slut. As he left he said “And that’s how a slut should be used. I’ll see you Tuesday”. I had to go finger myself after cause I was so turned on. I cannot fucking wait til Tuesday. This was probably one of the hottest things I’ve ever experienced.. and I never said a word.
As a virgin I would like to say FUCK YOU to the world. Having sex in my face 24/7 when the only thing I wanna do is FUCK, but can’t, is making me want to jump off a bridge. You seriously have no fucking idea. I must be pretty fucking useless and shit if I can’t get one fuck. All I want is ONE fuck. I’m so fucking alone.
I was looking forward to sucking off english boy tonight. But he canceled on me :( I’m so fucking gutted. All I want is a fuck. I wanna blow a guy & then I want him to fuck me. Why is it so hard to find someone willing to fuck me? Is there really that much wrong with me?